I AM SAD

I'm the blue bruise on your back
I'm this headache
Sometimes
Always
Often
Never
Forever
I'm the streetlight turning red
I am sad
You say
You keep saying
I'm on my way
I'm not away
But I'm on my own
I'm the things you never had
The unsaid
Sometimes
Always
Often
Never
Forever
I'm the ones you never met
Half-smoked cigarette
You say
You keep saying
I'm on my way
I'm not away
But I'm on my own
I'm the deep scar on your leg
I'm this airbag
Sometimes
Always
Often
Never
Forever
I'm the pills on your bed
I am sad

I KNOW WHAT I KNOW

And I know your face will disappear
Maybe in a year
Or maybe less
But I don’t care
If you are here with me
Now.

And I know that even kings and queens
Were born to die
And all my lies
Were meant to be
Truth.

And I know that blinding candle’s glow
As it shows on the road
The death of vaganbonds.

And I know your smile is smiles away
And all I say is: “Ok”
But in my heart the hurt dies hard.

And I know that all the shining crowns
Were made to fall down
On the ground
Upon the heads that once had bore them.

And I know that kindling candle’s glow
As it shows in my soul
The death of vagabonds.

I SHOULD STOP

I should stop thinking
Of the parting scenes
The goodbye parties
And everything else.

Every smile is
Like a mile
I have to go
Without you.

Every tear is
Like a year
I have to live here
Without you.

Every speech is
Like a beach of
White Sands of
Loneliness.

I should stop thinking
Of the parting scenes
The goodbye parties
And everything else.

Every smile is
Like a mile
I have to go
Alone.

At the stations,
At the airports,
Crowds of people
Waving goodbye.
And they smile,
They smile,
They smile
They smile.

I USED TO BE QUITE GOOD AT THIS

i used to be quite good at this
took a few pills and eased the pain
always caught the last train home
i was the one
who knew how to have fun
building spaceships out of chewing-gum
in the rain
to go to the moon and back
and then back to the moon

but now i’m stuck
i’ve run out of crap
the crack in the wall
is calling my name
and i’m ashamed
i keep washing my face
in the hope that my reflection
in the mirror could change

i used to be so good at this
took a few sips and faced the crowd
always caught the last train home,
laughed out loud
i knew how to make fun
of everything and everyone
to go to the stars and back
and then back to the start

but now i’m stuck
i’ve run out of crap
the crack in the wall
is calling my name
and i’m ashamed
i keep washing my face
in the hope that my reflection
in the mirror could change
show me how i never pretended to be
the real me.

I WANT TO BE

When people ask me:
“What do you want to do in your life?”
I answer: “I want to be a thief,
Steal everybody’s grief
So that for them all
Every day
May become
Synonymous with Joy.

When people ask me:
“What do you want to do in your life?”
I answer: “I want to be an alchemist,
So I can turn tears into Gold
And I can turn Pain into Rain,
I can turn a sad gaze into a maze of Life.”

When people ask me:
“What do you want to do in your life?”
I answer: “I want to be a song
To spread my wings and fly
To the ones who cry on their own
To dry their eyes
And make them sing together.”

IF (I WERE A CHORD)

If
If I were a chord
I'd be E minor
Major Tom
In the darkest hour of all
Floating in Space
Full of Grace
We'll plant a flag
On your Planet Grave
We'll say we did the best we could
To save you
...
And all I see is Darkness
All around
I hear no sounds
I'm cold
I wish I had a smile
For every mile
I traveled
To get here
A million Light Years
Away from home
...
Can you hear me?
Ground Control
Hey.
Can you hear me?!
Can you
hear me?

INCARNADINE

This awful headache
Is driving me mad
All I see turned into black
Only my blood still remains red.

I lie on the floor
With my head in my hands.
That Death is opening my door
For me it’s easy to understand.

I feel a stone
Instead of my heart.
I didn’t want to be alone
When all this started.

Through the barrier of Time
I look into your eyes
To see again my crime
I let you go with no surprise.

I try to open the air
To find the depth of a moment
And stay there
In a dusty nook between wind and wind.

I feel a stone
Instead of my heart.
I didn’t want to be alone
When all this started.

This awful headache
Is driving me mad
All I see turned into black
But my blood still remains red.

I lie on the floor
With my face turned to the wall
I see nothing anymore
And it’s your name that I call.

INDIFFERENT LIGHT

Once you were
Everywhere
In my heart
Now we are
Miles apart
We are
Like stars

Shining
In different nights
Shining
Indifferent light
Shining
We are just
Shining
Miles apart
Shining
Indifferent stars

Once you were
Everywhere
In my soul
Now there’s a wall
In this room
We can’t overcome
We are

A black hole
In the Milky Hole
We are
A black hole
Taking stars away
We are a black hole
A black hole
In this world
We are a black hole